...in the late 30’s to mid 40’s a new fear unexpectedly gripped me. It dawned on me that the days for me to have my own children were slowly fading away.

I wonder about her all the time. What is she doing? Is she safe? Is she crying for me or having fun? Is she missing us? Hungry? Sad? Scared? Is she ok?? As each of these questions rolls through my mind, I follow it with a prayer for my girl and a reminder for m...

There were so many moments where it was clear God was working in me to knead and massage these exhausted emotions into a place of peace.

Attending crisis pregnancy fundraiser banquets exposes a special place in the heart of a barren woman. It’s kind of a gritty and smelly place...

....heaped on top of the overall ache, jealousy and bitterness became mainstays for me since Trying began 7 years ago. In some ways, they've been the cruelest part.

Humility and trust in God will make you a spectacular steward of your pain. Decades of agony in the hands of Christ gave me a gift.

In August of 1999 I was a brilliant bride. I wore white, walked down the aisle of my childhood church, and pledged my life and love forever...